Day 103
Bed rest started with a bang for me- it took me weeks to process the fact that one minute I was standing, a normal pregnant person, and the next I was ordered to lay down for an indefinite period of time.
Bed rest has ended (sort of) in a very different manner. For the past 5 weeks, I've been building myself a normal life, very slowly. I started with some extra sitting, then some actual standing and walking. I continued spending more time moving and testing myself. My body passed with flying colors- after a few weeks, my cervix had actually lengthened to be stronger than the average 3rd trimester pregnant cervix. I am the valedictorian of bed rest!
By now I am on to some swimming, evening walks, shopping, and running errands, and as of last week, going back to work on a very limited basis. I'm back to my office about 12 hours a week, and still working 8 or so more from home. It's going ok- more tiring than I expected. I still spend several hours a day lying down and resting.
I love being more active. I didn't realize how difficult bed rest was becoming until it loosened up. I'm starting to be more aware there's a real actual baby girl coming really soon, and I've started cramming a little, like newborns are exams.
She's getting big, about 4 lbs. She's built like Danny so far- average weight, legs and arms in the 80th percentile, and the best news- her head is in the 35th percentile and I hope and pray it stays that way. We just can't wait to meet her.
I can't say enough times, that this whole experience would have been unbearable and impossible without our amazing support system of family and friends. Food deliveries, house cleaning, dog walking, book and movie loanings, long chats, and calls and emails of support. We are humbled. We are so, so happy. We thank you all.
My Prone Adventures
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Monday, March 5, 2012
Turning A Corner
March can be a confusing month in Anchorage. The light is coming back- the days are longer, sunbeams stream into the house in new and forgotten angles, and we all start to feel more energetic. But the snow is still coming down, falling into the biggest piles I've ever seen. This year has been a record snow year for Anchorage- we've had the 3rd greatest snowfall of all time, and are only 9 inches shy of the alltime record- and we'll make it- probably this week. It's going to take forever to melt.
Last week, I got some good news. All is still going well, so I got some clearance to start doing more sitting up and standing up. It's more or less dependant on my own monitoring, so I'm keeping a log of what activity I do and seeing how it affects me. So far I've had no cramping, which is encouraging.
The best part is the sitting up can be done just about anywhere- my kitchen table, the hair salon, out to dinner. I'm already finding that it makes a huge difference to get out of the house for a little bit. An hour in the pedicure chair and I'm totally content to spend the rest of the day on my side again. I'm getting a major mental health break.
Don't worry, I'm being conservative and easing into it. I'm laying down right now as we speak. But it has been pretty exciting to be more independent. Last week I drove myself to my doctor appointment and it felt just like the day I bought my first car in Denver after not having one for a few years. I wanted to drive over any state line. I put the radio up and the windows down. It was a great feeling.
I've found, at first, that I feel a little uncomfortable in public and in crowds. I've found that others (and sometimes myself) are more comfortable with the absolutism of Total Bed Rest. But I'm working my way towards Modified Bed Rest and it's really great.
I won't be cleared to go back to work for a while yet. But I'll be able to cook dinner for my family a few nights a week, catch a movie, get my teeth cleaned, and get ready for the baby a little more actively.
Last week, I got some good news. All is still going well, so I got some clearance to start doing more sitting up and standing up. It's more or less dependant on my own monitoring, so I'm keeping a log of what activity I do and seeing how it affects me. So far I've had no cramping, which is encouraging.
The best part is the sitting up can be done just about anywhere- my kitchen table, the hair salon, out to dinner. I'm already finding that it makes a huge difference to get out of the house for a little bit. An hour in the pedicure chair and I'm totally content to spend the rest of the day on my side again. I'm getting a major mental health break.
Don't worry, I'm being conservative and easing into it. I'm laying down right now as we speak. But it has been pretty exciting to be more independent. Last week I drove myself to my doctor appointment and it felt just like the day I bought my first car in Denver after not having one for a few years. I wanted to drive over any state line. I put the radio up and the windows down. It was a great feeling.
I've found, at first, that I feel a little uncomfortable in public and in crowds. I've found that others (and sometimes myself) are more comfortable with the absolutism of Total Bed Rest. But I'm working my way towards Modified Bed Rest and it's really great.
I won't be cleared to go back to work for a while yet. But I'll be able to cook dinner for my family a few nights a week, catch a movie, get my teeth cleaned, and get ready for the baby a little more actively.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Day 48
I've been negligent, posting on this blog. Mostly because things started to get monotonous. I started to feel monotonous. Sometimes it's hard to visit with people because I have nothing much to say. Bed rest makes me feel dull, that's all I can say about that.
Tomorrow will mark the completion of 7 weeks of bed rest. Which is mind boggling. This week has been more challenging, in finding positivity. Sometimes I just need to be alone and wallow a little. Ultimately I'm keeping my chin up and looking on the bright side and all that.
Today I saw my perinatologist, and my cervix was measuring almost normal for my stage of pregnancy. Which is GREAT. It means the bed rest is working and then some. It means that I don't have to worry about going to the hospital for bed rest (at least, not at this point). It means my cervix is tolerating the growing fetus with aplomb.
Baby girl weighs 1 lb 6 ounces today. She's doing very well. Bed rest doesn't seem to bother her at all.
As a special reward for my superb cervical measurement, my doctor today gave me the ok to schedule a pre-natal massage next week, which I badly need. All the lying on my side is wreaking havoc on my neck, my back, and my hips. I am getting noticeably weaker; certainly I've lost some muscle. Heaving myself off the memory-foam couch nest is harder and harder each day.
I'm 23 weeks and 5 days pregnant. We're still in the risky zone, but it gets better every day. A chart, for your perusal:
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Tomorrow will mark the completion of 7 weeks of bed rest. Which is mind boggling. This week has been more challenging, in finding positivity. Sometimes I just need to be alone and wallow a little. Ultimately I'm keeping my chin up and looking on the bright side and all that.
Today I saw my perinatologist, and my cervix was measuring almost normal for my stage of pregnancy. Which is GREAT. It means the bed rest is working and then some. It means that I don't have to worry about going to the hospital for bed rest (at least, not at this point). It means my cervix is tolerating the growing fetus with aplomb.
Baby girl weighs 1 lb 6 ounces today. She's doing very well. Bed rest doesn't seem to bother her at all.
As a special reward for my superb cervical measurement, my doctor today gave me the ok to schedule a pre-natal massage next week, which I badly need. All the lying on my side is wreaking havoc on my neck, my back, and my hips. I am getting noticeably weaker; certainly I've lost some muscle. Heaving myself off the memory-foam couch nest is harder and harder each day.
I'm 23 weeks and 5 days pregnant. We're still in the risky zone, but it gets better every day. A chart, for your perusal:
COMPLETED WEEKS OF GESTATION AT BIRTH (using last menstrual period) | CHANCE OF SURVIVAL |
---|---|
21 weeks and less | 0% |
22 weeks | 0-10%* |
23 weeks | 10-35% |
24 weeks | 40-70% |
25 weeks | 50-80% |
26 weeks | 80-90% |
27 weeks | >90% |
30 weeks | >95% |
34 weeks | >98% |
* Most babies at 22 weeks are not resuscitated because survival without major disability is so rare.
A baby's chances for survival increases 3-4% per day between 23 and 24 weeks of gestation and about 2-3% per day between 24 and 26 weeks of gestation. After 26 weeks the rate of survival increases at a much slower rate because survival is high already.
At this point, I am at a much lower risk for pre-term labor, as my cervix is doing good and my uterus is cramping less. But, I will wait until 27 weeks before I start pushing for more privileges. High on my list: a haircut and a walk around the block.
Thanks to eveeyone who has checked in. I'm doing fine. Super bored. Sick of the couch. Loving this kid I'm growing.
Friday, January 27, 2012
To Be More Specific...
This post is for my brother-in-law Peter, who made me smile first thing in the morning with a comment. It made me remember that I had resolved to post today some more specific information about what I'm really doing, thinking about, and engaging in all day. So, ok then.
Reading:
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Watching:
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I'm still sticking with the program of not watching TV in the day time. I haven't really been working this week, so some days it's been more difficult to stick to that goal. I also spend a lot of time staring at my computer screen, surfing the internet or chatting and deep down I wonder if there's really any difference. Someday I'll break the rule, and then you'll find me in bed, watching Revenge with the shades drawn and the dog curled up beside me. And that day my husband will come home early, and I will be 100% busted.
Learning:
Many people suggested I take this time to learn a language. It would indeed be a handy time to brush up on my Russian or Spanish (and by brush up, I mean "learn completely over from scratch because I only remember a few phrases like 'I have a brain tumor"). Instead, I joined Code Academy, which endeavors to teach web code via weekly interactive lessons. I don't know how far I'll make it but I do know that it engages a part of my brain that I've left to lie fallow for a long time. I also signed up for one of Stanford's free online classes. I'm going to start Computer Science in mid February. It's free and utterly voluntary, so again, I can't promise how far I'll get, but it's something I find intriguing and completely foreign. Very excited about all this. A big thanks to Kelly for her great ideas. Also from Kelly, I'm spending some time browsing Khan Academy every day. Pinterest won't let me in yet, so that's what I'm doing on the web (besides Facebook, Words With Friends, and Sudoku).
Thinking About:
- The Oxford Comma. The Oxford comma seems to be experiencing a come-back of sorts. For those who aren't grammar nerds, here's a series of graphics demonstrating use and non-use of the Oxford comma.
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I'm still struggling to abide by my editor's and graphic designer's decree that I stop using the double space before starting a new sentence. I'm aware that it makes print and web writing look bad, but it's such a hard habit to break. Same goes for the Oxford comma. I'm pleased to see it's making a comeback, even if it's only on Facebook.
- The Baby. Baby names. Baby furniture. Baby room. Baby showers. Baby bump. Baby kicks. She is the reason for the bed rest, and I think about her all the time. I can rarely lie on my stomach anymore, because she kicks me, hard. It's amazing to me that she's already communicating, in a way. We haven't picked a name yet, but some call her Lola, some call her Wiggles, and some call her Gumbo. She's doing great, and the evidence of her growth is becoming pretty obvious. Danny and I will take some pictures this weekend of the burgeoning belly. Here's some older pictures and video of her. She's quadrupled in size since then, but that also means we've graduated to the 3d sonogram pictures and I'm not going to share those with you because they make our baby look disgusting. I still love to get sonograms, and peek in at her and watch her kick and roll like an otter. Fortunately for me, I'm high risk and so I get to see her every week or so.
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- Eating. I think a lot about eating, of course. We've been so lucky to have many friends bringing delicious food for us. It's great because it keeps me off my feet, and I don't have to think ahead much about what to eat. I'm sort of unusual in that I haven't put any weight on during my pregnancy. In fact, mostly due to the morning sickness and now due to the bed rest, I've lost about 15 pounds and haven't gained any. My doctors say this is ok, since I started out heavy and it's obvious that the baby is growing normally and rapidly. So, I am enjoying one of the chief joys that I can have right now: eating anything I want, anytime I want. I'm still sticking to the healthy foods, with lots of vegetables and whole grains and smoothies and vitamins. But if a milkshake sneaks in there, it's just fine. I've never had dietary carte blanche in my life, and don't expect to ever again, so I'm enjoying it. I wondered how bed rest and lack of exertion would affect my appetite, and I'd say that I still get hungry at mealtime, but rarely have the urge to snack. I try to have smoothies and soup whenever possible, because it's hard to digest when laying down, and it seems to be a little easier.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Day 21
Welcome to the 3 weeks mark. In a lot of ways, time has flown. This blog got really boring to update, really quickly :) Please see previous post, about what I do all day.
My mind set and point of view is constantly evolving. More and more I'm at peace with this process. I saw both of my doctors within the last week, and I think we're all in agreement that I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm fairly comfortable with the fact that I should and will be on bed rest until the end of February (when I will reach the milestone of 25 weeks) and after that we'll see how it goes.
This week I got to meet my best friends' new baby: Woodson Wade Collins was born on Saturday. His parents were so sweet to make a house call with a newborn. He's tiny and perfect. It's been really fun to be pregnant with Jen (his mom), and it's equally fascinating to watch her enter Mom World. I feel like I'm standing on the threshold but I can't follow her in just yet. I'm really excited for our kids to grow up together.
I've gotten lots of great visits, food, care packages, books, and knitting supplies. If I'm bored, it's my own fault. Still, sometimes I catch myself staring out the window for long periods of time, cat-like. You might call it meditation. It's not as deliberate as that but certainly as restful.
My mind set and point of view is constantly evolving. More and more I'm at peace with this process. I saw both of my doctors within the last week, and I think we're all in agreement that I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm fairly comfortable with the fact that I should and will be on bed rest until the end of February (when I will reach the milestone of 25 weeks) and after that we'll see how it goes.
This week I got to meet my best friends' new baby: Woodson Wade Collins was born on Saturday. His parents were so sweet to make a house call with a newborn. He's tiny and perfect. It's been really fun to be pregnant with Jen (his mom), and it's equally fascinating to watch her enter Mom World. I feel like I'm standing on the threshold but I can't follow her in just yet. I'm really excited for our kids to grow up together.
I've gotten lots of great visits, food, care packages, books, and knitting supplies. If I'm bored, it's my own fault. Still, sometimes I catch myself staring out the window for long periods of time, cat-like. You might call it meditation. It's not as deliberate as that but certainly as restful.
Friday, January 20, 2012
How The Days Go By
Welcome to Day 16 of bed rest. I am 18 weeks and 6 days pregnant. I am very close to the 20th week (halfway mark).
After a full day of moping, I'm feeling better. It's Friday, which really means nothing anymore, but Danny is taking Jack to some ski races in Homer this weekend and I have a fun weekend with lots of friend visits planned, so that gives me something to look forward to.
I usually try to stay in bed as long as possible in the mornings. This is because my memory foam bed is much more comfortable for side-lying than my couch, because the light in the mid-morning has been divine in my bedroom windows, and because I know I'm going to spend a large part of the day on the couch regardless. I like to split my time up between my two "offices".
I will put my laptop in my room when I go to bed, so that when I wake up, I can lie on my side in bed and check work email, write on the blog, chat with friends. Most mornings, Danny brings me breakfast in bed, as well as my daily glass of Metamucil to chug (a necessary evil).
Usually around mid day, I wander downstairs. Fern is always happy to see me. She find this whole situation as perplexing as I do. I'm home from work, which she likes, but we never go for walks at all. Added to this, it's been below zero for over a week, so she hasn't been very interested in being in the back yard on her own. It makes me feel bad, but Danny and friends have been helping me by giving her lots of exercises, so it's not the worst thing.
My only real strict bed rest rule is that the TV can't come on during the daylight hours. Or at least the traditional work hours. I know there's a lot that Netflix Instant has to offer but I think my brain might go a bit too mushy if I watch TV all day. Who knows, I might cave later, as this bedrest stint is looking to be longer than I thought.
I do work as much as I can- emails and writing and phone calls. It's unclear to me how much I'll be able to work, but I do find it so helpful to my sense of normalcy and control. I hope to be able to keep up with work.
I do a fair bit of reading- books and magazines. I play Words with Friends (my name is sangstak and I want to play with you). I play Angry Birds and Contre Jour. I text and chat with friends, which keeps me sane. I've been doing a little knitting but need some new patterns.
Around 5 I might turn the tv on to watch some of the shows I'm recording. It's hard to not be able to participate in the cooking or cleaning up or laundry or the million other chores that are still needing to be done around me. Danny's been a champ- cooking, cleaning, driving me and Jack around, waiting on me hand and foot, managing homework, exercising the dog, and everything in between. I think we're doing fine, but if this really does go on until mid April, we'll have to ask for more help. People have been contributing food, which helps tons. All the calls and emails and text and visits helps me tons.
I went from normal pregnancy to high-risk in the blink of an eye and I'm having trouble catching up to that. After talking to my brother-in-law Larry, who is a neonatologist, for a while last night, Danny and I felt a lot better. It's crucial to make it to 24 weeks without incident, so we'll focus on that for now. As he reminded us, three months on bed rest is better than any length of time of your baby being in the NICU. So we're doing what it takes for now.
Thanks for all the kind words, good energy, and love. We couldn't do even a fraction of this without friends and family like you.
After a full day of moping, I'm feeling better. It's Friday, which really means nothing anymore, but Danny is taking Jack to some ski races in Homer this weekend and I have a fun weekend with lots of friend visits planned, so that gives me something to look forward to.
I usually try to stay in bed as long as possible in the mornings. This is because my memory foam bed is much more comfortable for side-lying than my couch, because the light in the mid-morning has been divine in my bedroom windows, and because I know I'm going to spend a large part of the day on the couch regardless. I like to split my time up between my two "offices".
I will put my laptop in my room when I go to bed, so that when I wake up, I can lie on my side in bed and check work email, write on the blog, chat with friends. Most mornings, Danny brings me breakfast in bed, as well as my daily glass of Metamucil to chug (a necessary evil).
Usually around mid day, I wander downstairs. Fern is always happy to see me. She find this whole situation as perplexing as I do. I'm home from work, which she likes, but we never go for walks at all. Added to this, it's been below zero for over a week, so she hasn't been very interested in being in the back yard on her own. It makes me feel bad, but Danny and friends have been helping me by giving her lots of exercises, so it's not the worst thing.
My only real strict bed rest rule is that the TV can't come on during the daylight hours. Or at least the traditional work hours. I know there's a lot that Netflix Instant has to offer but I think my brain might go a bit too mushy if I watch TV all day. Who knows, I might cave later, as this bedrest stint is looking to be longer than I thought.
I do work as much as I can- emails and writing and phone calls. It's unclear to me how much I'll be able to work, but I do find it so helpful to my sense of normalcy and control. I hope to be able to keep up with work.
I do a fair bit of reading- books and magazines. I play Words with Friends (my name is sangstak and I want to play with you). I play Angry Birds and Contre Jour. I text and chat with friends, which keeps me sane. I've been doing a little knitting but need some new patterns.
Around 5 I might turn the tv on to watch some of the shows I'm recording. It's hard to not be able to participate in the cooking or cleaning up or laundry or the million other chores that are still needing to be done around me. Danny's been a champ- cooking, cleaning, driving me and Jack around, waiting on me hand and foot, managing homework, exercising the dog, and everything in between. I think we're doing fine, but if this really does go on until mid April, we'll have to ask for more help. People have been contributing food, which helps tons. All the calls and emails and text and visits helps me tons.
I went from normal pregnancy to high-risk in the blink of an eye and I'm having trouble catching up to that. After talking to my brother-in-law Larry, who is a neonatologist, for a while last night, Danny and I felt a lot better. It's crucial to make it to 24 weeks without incident, so we'll focus on that for now. As he reminded us, three months on bed rest is better than any length of time of your baby being in the NICU. So we're doing what it takes for now.
Thanks for all the kind words, good energy, and love. We couldn't do even a fraction of this without friends and family like you.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
An Update
An update. I saw my perinatologist today for the first time since my surgery a week ago. He performed my surgery, and I was to get a check up on the status of my stitches and the length of my cervix. Everything looked good, in his opinion. The fact that I still am lightly cramping as a result of my irritable uterus is indicating that bed rest is still the best thing for me. In fact, he predicted that I might be on bed rest until 32 weeks. Ultimately my regular OB will decide my course of treatment, but I'm not sure his recommendation will be much more extravagant.
32 weeks. That's 12 weeks from now. 3 months. April 15. A long, long time. I've heard anything from 22 weeks to 24 weeks to 28 weeks to 32 weeks, and while I know everything is dependent on what happens as I recover, it's very difficult to not know how long I'll be on bed rest. Hearing 32 weeks took a lot of wind out of my sails, and to be honest, once I got home from the doctor, I went straight back to bed. But what choice did I have?
Please excuse the moping, I'll be regaining my pluck after a nap.
32 weeks. That's 12 weeks from now. 3 months. April 15. A long, long time. I've heard anything from 22 weeks to 24 weeks to 28 weeks to 32 weeks, and while I know everything is dependent on what happens as I recover, it's very difficult to not know how long I'll be on bed rest. Hearing 32 weeks took a lot of wind out of my sails, and to be honest, once I got home from the doctor, I went straight back to bed. But what choice did I have?
Please excuse the moping, I'll be regaining my pluck after a nap.
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